Today was my first day actually teaching English here, in Baku. What I was asked to do is seemingly simple: practice conversational English with my students. I was very well prepared for the lesson. I prepared a topic with rich discussion options, a PowerPoint presentation to organization the class hour, and activities. I was all set to go.
Except my students are, believe it or not, the English professors who work in ASEU. It’s not that these folks do not know English; in fact, they know the grammar perfectly and are very well educated. The issue is that they have very little interaction with native speakers of English. Therefore, their conversational skills do not match their knowledge of the language, and they are not confident about expressing themselves in English. I know this problem intimately from my days studying Arabic at Brandeis. The program is truly superb, I would even argue I am proficient in the language, but having little face time with native Arabic speakers has compromised my ability to actually converse. Two and a half weeks in an immersion environment in Morocco really elevated my skill level and confidence, so I can say for a fact that practicing with me will help.
The problem was that there I stood, a recent graduate armed with a BA in Islamic and Middle Eastern Studies and a lot of good will, in front of a group of people who are not only my seniors but far more educated and experienced in teaching. It was pretty nerve-wracking. As I stood there in front of them, introducing myself, it hit me that my audience was a group of adults who probably find it odd that pipsqueak like me is teaching them.
Getting through that hour was one of the more challenging experiences of my life. I had to keep reminding myself that I’m psyching myself out and everyone in the room is eager to practice with me and improve their English; that’s what they invited me here for, that’s my raison d’être.
The lesson did not end up going quite as I had thought it would. The activity I had planned was not quite right for the group, and the conversation went in a different direction from what I designed. We started out with introduction, talking about ourselves and out hometowns like I had hoped, but then someone brought up the fact that they were traveling home today for a funeral. That brought up a lot of questions from them about grief and funerary processions in the United States, so I found myself talking a lot more than I had wanted to (I aspire to have the students doing 85% of the talking).
Another thing that I found irksome was the use of cellphones during the lesson. I heard this would be a problem here before I came and when I spoke to one of my local friends she confirmed that students typically answer calls and texts in the middle of class. Though I knew in the back of my mind that this was coming, I found it extremely annoying and disrespectful. I tried my best not to take it personally, and I suppose I am not so much offended as I feel it is disruptive and am concerned about the effects phone usage will have on the flow of conversation in the future. The expectations for student behavior in the classroom are certainly a major obstacle to teaching in a foreign culture. It is something I will have to try and live with, because there would be no institutional support for reform on this issue.
Still, I would call it a success. Everyone spoke at least for a few minutes, and the vocabulary used was very extensive. In talking about hometown, they brought up climate, traditions, cuisine, and other topics. And there was cultural exchange, which is one of my top two goals for these lessons. I learned about Azeri grief culture and their, in turn, learned about our practices in the US (at least according to me).
I still have a lot to work on as a teacher.
There is a lot of work ahead of me. The main thing I need to get better at is sticking to my lesson plan and activities and not letting my students, whatever their age and rank, stray to different topics. I also need to become more assertive and goad the shyer students to talk more, while not letting the more confident ones take over the conversation. Maintaining the use of English throughout the hour is also going to be a great trial.
But I feel myself equipped for the challenge, for as I face it I will hold on to something my university’s president, Fred Lawrence, said at the PBK reception; I don’t recall his exact words, but the message was that we matriculated from an elite university with great distinction and we should recall that fact and draw strength from it as we face the next challenges life brings. Indeed, my education and god will are all I need to succeed in this experience and become a better person for it.